So, the past three years have been absolute whoppers.
I intended to spend them on what I was playfully calling my “self-study MBA” in writing fiction. Instead, I think it’s fair to award myself a Master’s in familial and societal trauma. The pandemic and its losses… being audited by the IRS twice… being told in pregnancy that my infant would not live, then that he had a heart defect that could be fixed, then the journey of womb to NICU to operating room… and finally, in 2023, physically recovering from a parathyroidectomy that gave me a physical neck scar to commemorate having my throat metaphorically slit by betrayal. A family member we trusted absolutely was sexually molesting our children. And, unfairly but not unusually, we are the ones who lost friends and family for exposing him.
Fiction was on hold.
Now I have washed up on the shore, scarred but alive. I have studied evil, deception, and addiction; lived grief and grace. I have found the missing gears to my story engine in darkness, not in how-to books.
I am writing again.
I want to keep this blog active to track my 2024 writing goals, but also expand it to cover my other interests. The Old Internet has been on my mind; it was healthier in many ways. This is my conscious rejection of the past ten years of advice from salesmen to make a narrowly-focused site. Welcome to my web log about everything that has my attention.
And, while thinking about whether anyone will read this, a message for my enemy:
Merlin, remember that you are imprisoned at the end of Le Morte d’Arthur. I’m certain of more than you think I know, and my suspicions form a pattern clear in hindsight (Pepé le Pew as your Steam avatar? Really?). All of your descendants are also my descendants, and your name will be remembered with disgust and revulsion. My mind is not clouded by any love for you, and I for one will not make myself sick trying to deny what you are. Repent. You have the detective’s phone number.